Another break from work..yay!

Gosh. If you only knew how much I miss blogging..

If only I have so much time off work, I'd probably blog everything out..

Well, about my boyfriend? 

He's the nicest thing on earth that ever happened to me and the best thing I never asked for. that's all for now. hehe!

As for today, I have so much things to do. 

I'll be meeting up my cousin to meet this sewer to fit us for my brother's wedding in 2months time. yey. I'm so excited and worried at the same time :) 

Anyway, I'm wishing everyone a happy day today and the rest of the day :)

-bloghopping now-

Hey guys! It's been quite a long hiatus, aye? the longest hiatus ever, I guess? :( I've been enjoying your posts but I really don't have the time to comment with everyone since I can't log in to my co-worker's (Gale) phone (I've been using her phone to check out your blog because she's on postpaid plan and wifi is not available in our area) because I'll be needing some verification code and blah blah blah..

Anyway, again. it's Wednesday and my day off. 

The title has nothing to do much with my post, it's just that, today we went to watch this movie "The Mistress" and I did not enjoy it. It's boring and boring and boring :(

Oh. one more thing..

Got myself a boyfriend :p (that's news, I guess?)

-bloghopping now :)

I just got home from my interview.

It totally ruined my day. Gosh! I just hate myself so much! I've been in to a lot of interviews and I learned nothing. I was doing okay on the way and then everything just went black. I didn't even have the chance to apply everything I've learned in my training. The exaggeration of the mouth when pronouncing a word/s, tongue positioning, how to read it properly and blah blah blah. I was lost! I couldn't even deliver my answer appropriately. I stammer, my hands were sweating and trembling at the same time. I had everything (in mind) in control. I only need to speak with confidence, with smile and proper pronunciation and I fucked up! I freaked out!!! I got one chance..one chance and I blew it. Threw it all away just like that. Shit! Shit! Shit! I hate me!!! I really really really hate myself right now!!! Gosh!!! When can I ever get things right?!!! Ugh! 

screw this day!!!

P.S

I love you guys. xx

Another lazy post for today. It's raining this late in the morning and I'm supposed to meet my friends (Janine and Esthel) for a girls afternoon date :), if it won't rain after 2pm, I might really go. Right now I'm watching this series, "Please be careful with my heart" lols, another romance series.

Tomorrow, my training begins, sounds like "batman begins" ei? HAHA. Speaking of which, I still haven't watch the movie yet and it's not that I don't have a time (plus, I really don't have the luxury of watching movies in theater anymore), it's just that, when I stumbled to some reviews, they don't have the same ratings which really confuses me if I should watch it or not. 

As for my challenge, it's ranting about my x. I don't think that will do since he's so missing for months now, remember? or maybe I should model my other exes? but they don't actually qualify :P

..oh, one more thing.

someone asked me, Mai, will you ever get married?

well, here's my answer..

I wanna be a girlfriend, then a bride but never a wife. 

hopefully, my views with marriage will change..but for now, that's my answer :)

I wish everyone a happy day. kisses :-* here :)

There's nothing much to share lately. I've been preoccupied with a lot of things, interviews, exams and books. Oh well, I went to accompany a friend to his dialysis schedule today, and as much as I want to share about it, I can't, not now, maybe some other time though. 

Anyway, I've been listening to this audio book- Fifty Shades Trilogy, heard of this book? hmm..I will not recommend this since Marcus a.k.a Michael Westside made a side comment that E.L James was a horrible horrible writer, lols. So, I was thinking, maybe you might not like it as well, but you can check it out if you want to. As for me, I find it funny-the usual novel thing, though obscenity (not my thing really) kind of rule over romance (correct me if I'm wrong). So, that's it. That what makes me busy lately :)

How about you? What's up with you? Any book in particular that interest you at the moment?

I went back to my old interface in blogger and uninstall my blogger apps in my phone since it's been giving me a hard time posting, I landed checking my stat (which I seldom do for the last 6months, I guess?) and surprised to see that my most popular post A Table For Two (My Brother's Marriage Proposal To A Fellow Blogger) -that is (who) by the way you probably knew-again, a blogger who is obviously soon to be my sister, the author of this blog Diaries of an Indistinctive  :) has reach to more than a thousand views and it made me feel awesomely happy! *dancing* 


Oh. When can I get over this. HAHA!


Oh, by the way,


I was asked to share the best photo I ever took since I started blogging, I shared this already but it was way back in my first quarter of blogging so I bet you never got the chance to see this yet :D

Happy faces of children who asked me to take their pictures :D 

priceless smiles of strangers :)

construction workers :D

Suddenly, I wanna go out just to take photos of strangers :( 


hmm..


What about you? What's the best photo you could share to the world? If you can't share to me the photo, atleast describe it to me :)

I am surprised when I open this blog and saw nothing but my outdated post. What just happened blogger? Why are you not publishing my post? Hmp! Was it my phone? or really the blogger? I hope it will be fix soon. 


Have a nice day blogger :)

All along I thought that "unrequited love" means reunited love when it actually means quite not the opposite but almost. 


Why am I talking about this? I dunno really. Maybe because I have been influenced with Japanese movies these days and some scenes in the movie portrays an unrequited love or such. It is something that does not happen only in movies but in real life. 


Agree?


An unrequited love.


Scene:


When a guy confesses his feelings towards a girl, if he's serious, he'd probably feel nervous..aye? He would think it was him who's doing, exerting a great effort to confess. Of course, seemingly hoping the girl he's wooing will see or realize how much effort he put through to overcome the feeling of agitation. 


But the moment he got rejected, (contrary to what he's expecting) he would gone wild. He'll ignore the girl. Avoid her. Curse her. Hate her or worse?


For what reason? for feeling discarded? 


Hah!


Would he rather want the girl to say yes out of pity? 


I think he should thank the girl for being honest. 


Correct? 


Respect the girls decision and move on. Find someone else, go on a hunt! (there are plenty of girls). 


Yeah. Yeah. I know! there's no one else like her. But what he do? the girl has someone else in her mind. The girl has it's own heart to follow..


Let's turn the table next :)

I'm currently watching this Korean drama series "12 Men In A Year" don't worry this is not a review" ^_^, it's just that..


It's my sister! 


she keeps telling me that I will never get myself a boyfriend. That I'm pitiful because I'm single. Jobless and unluckily penniless :( 


At some point, she's right. 


But what can I do? It's not like I'm gonna die not being in a relationship, right? But probably die of famished. 


Sure, being in a relationship seems to be fun. You have someone with you not all the time but atleast someone who's oblige to "think" of you every now and then, if he even bothers. lol
Someone who will treat you out for a date (waste money on you) and greets you in the morning, afternoon and evening. Someone who will constantly sweep you out of your feet. Someone who acts nicely, treat you like a princess or even a queen. Someone who says sweet nothings. Someone who will argue with you, laugh with you or worse makes you cry but will kiss your tears away in the end. Someone who can turn your world upside down. Someone to think of and someone other than friends and family you can build your future with..


Should I go on?


Nope.


I'd rather not. 


I might not stop :)


You see. There are some good aspects of having a relationship but as I mentioned in my previous (so long ago) post, there were reasons why I remained single and my sister just don't get it.


You think I should get one?


and then snap!


Nope.  I don't think so. I'd rather be single than to go out with different guys I don't like :p 


Hmm..I remember my cousin once told me, 

you should find a guy who likes you more than you do.

but I actually prefer the contrary. 


I don't know why. It's just that. I am more than happy being with someone I like a lot even if he likes me less. weird eh?


Hay. I dunno how will this topic ends up but basically I need to connect the whole thing to the title "12 Men In A Year" ..


..hmm, I was thinking of giving myself a break. aye? I need to loosen up a little. 


I need to start hunting-GUY HUNTING..


and we even come up with a style. 


whatever that is, it will be shared once it's being realize :)


As for now, a question was being raised.


Which would you prefer. He/She likes you more than you do or the contrary?

So the guy who I asked to do a blog post about LOVE just decided to say no! how dare is he? haha!!! He said he's busy and blah blah blah. Damn! He and his lame excuses.

I'm doing it myself then!!!!

warning: no flowery words ahead :)


here we go..


When people ask me, have you ever been in love? 

I do nothing but just raise my eyebrow..

My response is always- I don't know.

Why ask me? I honestly do not know the meaning of the word. I don't even know the word has it's meaning.

I think love is undefinable. What do you think? 

But if you insist! Fine! For the sake of posting, I will put every thoughts (I have) about LOVE in writing.

this might come out a little awkward since I find this topic really hard, confusing and annoying. haha

Love for me is nothing but a word. It has no definite meaning--JUST A WORD. A most used and abused word ever written in the dictionary. 

LOVE sucks!


For Pete's sake! Love makes a person lie then he becomes a liar. You think that's good? No! You're stupid if you think it is. 

It emptied someone's pocket. It makes someone sick. It makes someone cry. It makes someone suffer and unluckily die.


It causes a sheep to turn into a wolf. It wakens the most unhidden desire of someone. It causes trouble. It causes pain. burdens. sorrows. tears. 


Love is death. 


..love for you is???




P.S
I'd better keep it short and simple or else I'll end up rambling something nonsense :)

Do you remember? Recently my cousin gave birth to a cute, healthy little boy named Alaric (inspired by a Vampire Diary character, I guess?). It wasn’t my first time to stay over in the hospital to watch after someone. 

Way back maybe 5 years ago, (I can’t remember the year exactly) I watched after my grandmother who was hospitalized for more than a month. I watch her being restless for a quite a long time. During our stay in the hospital, I’ve seen her doctors in and out in her room doing her rounds, usually the doctor would comment about her condition, if it’s doing better or going worse.

Then I realized, a doctor (like in Grey’s Anatomy) must be very smart to say all those things I did not understand-medical terminologies impresses me so much. Where do you think did they learn so much about their field? Was it in school? Training? Experience perhaps? or here? He would usually talk about diagnoses, symptoms and such. In a white lab-like gown and a heartbeat monitoring sort of thing, he can already determine your condition, or am I just exaggerating things? The way how they do things is overwhelming. They way how they handle and explain things. The way how they keep their cool from their grumpy patience and calmness in every situation is exemplary.

You see, anyone in the field of medicine learning does not stop studying after graduation. For them, it’s just the beginning. They are responsible for their patience’s life, meaning, they should really be an expert. It is one’s life is at stake, and to do this, they must have enough knowledge to perform their job flawlessly by undergoing endless studies and training/s. They must have an excellent teacher to guide them, to teach them well. Why not be a teacher yourself?  Learn they way to teach in an effective way. Learn their ways and style-learn it why, learn it how, learn it where? Learn it here, learn it now.

An exchange of opinions, ideas and feedbacks from other doctors is one of helping themselves  could also be a tool to be more equipped in their chosen field. Through this, you will learn from one another. It’s like a give and take kind of situation.  Learning from the experts makes you an expert yourself. When you become an expert in your field,  it is best to teach other’s what you learn (to have a better world), sharing is loving.  You should know this by now. Being a doctor does not only mean being the doctor, you should also be somewhat like a leader and a manager. You should train more, study more to gain more. Train here to be a consultant. 

This is indeed weird. I am confident I wrote something last father's day. It was a greeting for all my blogger's fathers and father bloggers but I realized just now that it didn't publish. I wonder why? 


Hmm..anyway, that's why I'm making another one. 


Dear fellow bloggers,


Happy father's day to all your dad and to all blogger dads. I hope you had a blast :)


Sorry.


I've been a little busy these past few days. Lots of events have been held. I hope everyone is doing great. Don't worry, though I don't post comments in your blog (since I'm using my phone during visits) rest assured I check them every time :)


Ajah!

Hello lovies! ^_^


It's been a week since my last post and it felt so bad not sharing anything. I've been so greedy with sleep lately so everytime there's a chance, I'll sleep. How are you? I hope everything's doing good..


My week was kind of boring, fun and exciting. Boring because I stayed most of my time in the hospital doing close to nothing. Fun-because I get to see this cute male nurse everytime. HAHA! Exciting because there's a new born baby in the family :) How's that? 


I'd like to share some photos but first I'll have to ask permission from my cousin.  Will share some other time though.


That's all for now. I need to get some sleep-AGAIN :)


Have a nice day!!! ^_^

It was never a secret of you my dear bloggers that I've been actively looking for a job. I went to several interviews, one exam and I was not even informed if I passed or failed the exam. How UN-cool is that? Everyone in my batch (who took the exam) got their results and I did not? I texted the HR and yet they just ignore me :( Gosh.

Anyway, finally after few tries of interview, I got lucky. It's a job (I'm sure I am overqualified but because I'm desperate and I really wanted to buy my little sister a smart phone, so at least she's not outdated) in Kuwait. It pays not very good for a job abroad but just because I wanted to go far far away so I really want to grab the chance but everyone is telling me not to go :( and I decided not to! No regrets. It just that, it feels so bad to be jobless again :( Hay. I'm going crazy!!! :((

Anyway, I'd like to thank everyone for sharing some of your thoughts with my previous challenge.

<3

oh la la! 

Today we went to Dahilayan Adventure Park located somewhere in Bukidnon. It's actually my 3rd time to see and explore the place. It's like mini Baguio. The weather is cool but it rains a lot, mostly in the afternoon..like what happened just right after we finished out treetop adventure. hmp! 

Hay. I can't share yet any photos I took during the STEAG (where my brother works) FAMILY DAY because of some technical problems :D 

So instead, I'll share what I've been eating since I got home :D

can't get enough of these :D yum yum <3! 

happy weekend lovies ^_^

Oh! it's 1am already and I'm still awake. I don't know what to do. I wanted to watch Game of Thrones but I can't find it here, maybe my brother forgot to save it. hmp! I wanted to share what happened during the job fair, the interviews, their questions and my answers but I'm too sleepy already. I'm done visiting, reading, commenting and checking my emails..what's next?

Oh! question..

Did you watch The Avengers? ^_^

I watched it with friends yesterday but since Esthel and Chingee did not post yet the pics including the ones we took inside the cinema..so, some other time maybe :D

Have a happy Thursday! ^_^

I've been having a rough time since the start of March. There are some issues that I haven't shared with you and chose not to..yet. Though lately I'm starting to think that maybe it's best to ramble about it since I don't like keeping something stressful to myself. ^_^

oh! It's been days since my last post and I'm not proud of it. Yeah, definitely not proud because I have all the time in the world to post anything but unfortunately I can't find something worth sharing for. I had few drafts but most of those were kind of better left on draft, you know what I'm saying? Also, someone requested me that I should write a letter to Baby Joseph (you can check the site----->click here =) but I can't think of anything to say, really. I'm screwed :(( but maybe you wanna give it a try :)

Huh! You might be wondering what's with my title post have to do with my entire post. It's because while doing this (typing to be specific) I am watching a Revenge tv series marathon. Heard of this? the story is thrilling and very interesting (according to me). ^_^ 

Anyway, how was your weekend? I had a pretty hot day. My cousin showed up at our house to pick me up and asked me to accompany her (in between 11am-1pm). We went to McDo near Limketkai Mall and stayed for a while, we had floats for an hour while she did her thing (downloading some andriod apps in her phone) and went inside the mall to look up some fancy phone :D hooray! I didn't find one. that's a bad news. ^_^

I think I'll have to prepare our dinner now (just the rice) since I'm all alone.


Have a great weekdays ahead :)


xoxo

oh. just in case..sorry about this nonsense post :)

Hi guys! 

I am so sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with a lot of things (not to mention how awful our internet connection was), I never had the time to leave comments to every blog I visited. I felt terrible.

I didn't do anything much for the past few days so I have nothing much to share either :) though I hope everyone of you are having a great weekend :) 

Just sharing some pics my sister took with my niece :)

I'm off to visit your blogsite now :)

Once again, have a great weekend :)

I've been sitting in front of the laptop for almost an hour now. I originally wanted to share how frustrated I am thinking about that person in my latest post. Yeah, I guess he read my post and I really felt bad about it. I mean, I know I shouldn't. But somehow, I felt bad for that person, but I don't feel sorry at all. I meant everything I said in my blog. I just didn't think he'd read it or whatever. I didn't mean to hurt him that's why instead of confronting him, I blogged it. But I guess it was a bad move. I should have just ignore him in the first place. Oh! I'm going crazy. 

Anyway, I just got back. I went out to meet two of my friends this afternoon-Matet and Rose. I had a 15minutes walk from our house to Rose's office (our meeting place). It was hot but it felt good. When I got there, I saw Rose talking to some of her clients discussing something about car issues and Matet arrived just a few seconds after. When Rose was finally done talking with her clients, we went to her office and waited until 5. We talked for a while, mostly about Rose's love life and Matet's soon to be "wedding". Fine, I'm out of the picture, I am not the marrying type so I have nothing to share about love life, instead, I shared about my travel obsession. hah!

When Rose dismissed herself from her work, she called her boss and asked if she could go home already, after one quick phone call, plan changed, instead of going to Rose's place, we went to see her boss and her boss treat us for dinner. How cool! haha. Alright. after dinner, her boss sends us to our different destinations, Matet to meet her other friend and me-home. Matet wanted to see Rose driving so she asked her if she could drive, good thing her boss allowed her, but actually, it wasn't that bad at all since Rose wasn't really a bad driver. I was even envious of her. I really wish I know how to drive. haha. So all I did was to admire her. haha. So that's it. 

After parting ways, on the way home, I realized I miss Matet already. Yes. The reason we met today is that, to say our last goodbye to Matet, to give her a kiss and a hug before she'll leave the country in two days. Things are starting to change after graduation yet I don't feel the same. Haha. Matet is leaving the country to marry the man he loves in two months time. Whoa. engagements are indeed everywhere! 

that's all. thank you. haha! 

Have you ever blocked someone on fb? 

deleted or unfriended someone perhaps on your friends list? If you did,

..mind telling me your reasons? 

Do you think you did the right thing? 

Does it make you feel better after all? 

Do you think you're being fair? 

How many people (as you can remember) did you block or unfriend/delete in fb?

Sigh.

I know I'm being childish. I've been feeling a little down lately and I swear it has nothing to do with me blocking or shutting people out in my fb account. I am not usually the "blocker" type. I even accepts friend requests even if I don't know the person thinking that the reason he/she adds me because he/she wants to know me. Also, as long as we do have friends in common, that's okay. 


I am not sure what to feel if someone will unfriend me on fb or worst, block me. Oh! Yeah, I was unfriended with someone I met almost a year now, we had a huge misunderstanding and then I later found out that he unfriended me, yet, instead of feeling bad about it, I felt the contrary, because I was really thinking of blocking him also but he just happen to did it first, which was  a good thing. Aye? No need to expound the details. It was a very bad experience :)

Oh no! My memory was wrong. I wast unfriended  with other 3 different guys (that makes the guy above the 4th one).  They were my friends. HAHA! but the funny thing was, when I asked them, they have no idea about it. So, it turned out, it wasn't them who really blocked and unfriended me, it was their gfs. LOL

This first quarter of the year, I already blocked 4 friends in my friends list. I can't believe it!
to think that the two of them were my closest friends, who just happened to be a guy. The other one was a no friend of mine, the last one was sort of a friend on line. 

• The first guy I blocked on fb was a friend of mine. I mentioned my reason in this post. who still my friend in my other account. haha! but I deactivated my other account so, I don't need to block him again.
• the second and the third are partners. details are not to be tackled for now.
• the last one..(THE MAIN REASON WHY MY MOOD WAS RUINED LAST NIGHT)

He keeps sending me messages in Italian. I find it annoying since I don't speak nor understand Italian. but thanks to google :) At first he thought I was a poser. That I am guy pretending to be a girl and been using other's identity or something. I swear I got mad but eventually I kind of get his point, maybe he really just wanna make sure he's making friends with someone who really exist or true or something. But he's becoming really weird, he's talking about love, admiration or whatever, he's sending me videos and all. He's not obsess but the way I understand his messages, I think he likes me or I don't know. It was flattering at first and then later I find it annoying. He sends me messages non-stop and I hate it! So, I blocked him. And yesterday, someone sent me this.. 

ciao sono un parente di severino giovanni e lui voleva sapere il motivo per cui lui non ti ha più tra gli amici 

Can you believe it?!!! 

 

Yeah, I know. He must be wondering why in the hell he can't find me on fb but you know, I haven't answered any of his messages anymore, well, I did a few times, saying sorry and that I don't have time with him and that I don't think we have to talk since we can't understand each other because he doesn't speak English and I really don't like talking to him and stuff. At least with that I thought he'd get my point, that I really don't like talking to him anymore, but he's persistent, no matter how many times I told him in Italian that, he still doens't stop sending me messages, so I BLOCKED HIM. and yeah, I was thinking of blocking that someone (who claimed to be his relative) who sent me that message above. 

I just hope he will not make another account or pretend to be someone else to add me again because I really had enough of his dramas. I'm being mean but I'm really annoyed of his action. I can't take it anymore :(

Oh! what a tiring holy week.