I just got home from my interview.

It totally ruined my day. Gosh! I just hate myself so much! I've been in to a lot of interviews and I learned nothing. I was doing okay on the way and then everything just went black. I didn't even have the chance to apply everything I've learned in my training. The exaggeration of the mouth when pronouncing a word/s, tongue positioning, how to read it properly and blah blah blah. I was lost! I couldn't even deliver my answer appropriately. I stammer, my hands were sweating and trembling at the same time. I had everything (in mind) in control. I only need to speak with confidence, with smile and proper pronunciation and I fucked up! I freaked out!!! I got one chance..one chance and I blew it. Threw it all away just like that. Shit! Shit! Shit! I hate me!!! I really really really hate myself right now!!! Gosh!!! When can I ever get things right?!!! Ugh! 

screw this day!!!

P.S

I love you guys. xx

So the guy who I asked to do a blog post about LOVE just decided to say no! how dare is he? haha!!! He said he's busy and blah blah blah. Damn! He and his lame excuses.

I'm doing it myself then!!!!

warning: no flowery words ahead :)


here we go..


When people ask me, have you ever been in love? 

I do nothing but just raise my eyebrow..

My response is always- I don't know.

Why ask me? I honestly do not know the meaning of the word. I don't even know the word has it's meaning.

I think love is undefinable. What do you think? 

But if you insist! Fine! For the sake of posting, I will put every thoughts (I have) about LOVE in writing.

this might come out a little awkward since I find this topic really hard, confusing and annoying. haha

Love for me is nothing but a word. It has no definite meaning--JUST A WORD. A most used and abused word ever written in the dictionary. 

LOVE sucks!


For Pete's sake! Love makes a person lie then he becomes a liar. You think that's good? No! You're stupid if you think it is. 

It emptied someone's pocket. It makes someone sick. It makes someone cry. It makes someone suffer and unluckily die.


It causes a sheep to turn into a wolf. It wakens the most unhidden desire of someone. It causes trouble. It causes pain. burdens. sorrows. tears. 


Love is death. 


..love for you is???




P.S
I'd better keep it short and simple or else I'll end up rambling something nonsense :)