I just got home from my interview.

It totally ruined my day. Gosh! I just hate myself so much! I've been in to a lot of interviews and I learned nothing. I was doing okay on the way and then everything just went black. I didn't even have the chance to apply everything I've learned in my training. The exaggeration of the mouth when pronouncing a word/s, tongue positioning, how to read it properly and blah blah blah. I was lost! I couldn't even deliver my answer appropriately. I stammer, my hands were sweating and trembling at the same time. I had everything (in mind) in control. I only need to speak with confidence, with smile and proper pronunciation and I fucked up! I freaked out!!! I got one chance..one chance and I blew it. Threw it all away just like that. Shit! Shit! Shit! I hate me!!! I really really really hate myself right now!!! Gosh!!! When can I ever get things right?!!! Ugh! 

screw this day!!!

P.S

I love you guys. xx