Pretty obvious reason, isn't it?


Did you know that I got some pretty weird admirers too? Just too bad I don't like them.


I remember someone asked me (he was my classmate)..

right button is not working? whatever. I will just shout it out to your face then!

Sorry, I replied..

You're a good friend but..

But why?..

Oh! I knew, you don't like me because I'm not good looking and all. Am I right? I know I'm right. Girls will never like someone like me, because I'm ugly and you wanted someone who's smart, good looking and rich. We'll see Mai, I will get you once I pass my board exam!


Geez. He's right. I've got standards of my own. I think everyone does, but he too have standards, don't you think? why would out of all the girls he knew, he'd chose me? because he find me pretty, cute or whatever. I'm into the range of his standards. Trust me, I tried so hard to give it a try but I couldn't. Besides, he's too nice for me but I just don't like him for some reasons that the guy I like doesn't like me. Those kind of things. 


It's ironic. 


We like someone who totally ignore us and ignore someone who's totally in to us. 


Gosh. I used to think that life is unfair but I guess I need to give that a second thought. That makes that situation fair enough.


Back to my topic.


Years after, that guy I was talking you about really did pass the board exam and tried to contact me right after then..This time, my answer is not so different from before, it's more straight forward than before though..

Yes. I don't like you. As simple as that. It doesn't matter how you look, (because I was once  crazy over someone who's really not that good looking) or how successful you are or whatever. It's just that I don't like you. That's it. 

The most cliche reason: 

I'd rather have him as a friend than lose him totally.

There are guys who draw this..

line..

And this apply to women also.

Friends can be lovers but lovers can't be friends.

A common excuse with two people who call themselves "friends" yet both like each other. They always have this boundary and always being cautious with what's going on between them. They tried to compress whatever what's inside them-the longings, the jealousy when one's seen with another, the feeling of being set aside and left alone.


I'm single because we're friends..and we can't be more than that..

I have a guy friend who I really like. We were close and we talk from one thing to another almost everyday. We share secrets and we share feelings. Until one day, everything changed. He confessed that he likes me and he wanted to be us. I took it as a joke but I was really happy because I like him too, very much. But since I'm too stupid to admit that, I ignored him. I mean, I ignored what he said. I pretended not hearing anything. I am happy just us being friends, I wanted to stay it that way because I thought it's better that way. I thought if we will take the risk we'll lose the friendship. That's the usual scenario and it really does happen in real. I knew people who've been into that kind of situation. So, I'd rather have him as a friend than lose him totally.


Later, I told him I have boyfriend thinking it's the best way to let us go on with our friendship. 


After that, he tried to avoid me. 


Then I realized, it was a bad move. I should haven't pretended to have a boyfriend. I should have told him that I like him instead. Gosh. I should have took the risk. I'm such a coward! 


Then he call me a week after. He sounds chirpy on the other line. I was nervous. What is going on? He can't be this happy. Then he said, "Mai, got two news for you. Which one do you wanna hear first? the bad one or the good one?
Instead of answering he's question, I told him. oh really? I have something to confess too..but you go first and I'll go with the bad news. 
Then he said.."I might not able to talk to you anymore like we used to". That was shattering. I dunno, I just kept quiet and let him speak as he continued.."I already have a girlfriend and she wanted to meet you" wth? alright..I dunno what to say. I just smiled and forgot about that thing I wanted to tell him earlier. I was supposed to tell him that I like him and that bf thingy is nothing and it was all a lie but it's too late. Although at times I would joke around and would blurt that I like him and I really want us to be us and all. Since, a year ago, he broke up with his gf but after, we just laughed at it. He also told me that we'll be just good as friends. Great! But it's okay. He's right. Just sometimes, I can't stop thinking, what if we'll give ourselves a chance? Will it work? or we'll end up like other friends? 


Lesson:
If you like someone, don't wait for forever because life is short. You will never know what will happen tomorrow. Seize every opportunity and grab every chances you have. Take the risk, deal with the consequences later. 


Trivia:
Did you know that the best person to love is your friend? ^_^

Okay. My guy friend just told me that a gamer lady is 200% sexier for a gamer guy also. And not to mention that most guys I know are gamer. 
Guys prefer a woman like this..

Alodia Gosiengfiao
(hottest Pinay gamer and Cosplay queen in the Philippines)

Than this..

An outdoor type

One reason I broke up with my first boyfriend was that, he's a gamer and I'm not. We always fought about that stuff. He's always in the internet shop to play with that MU thing and DOTA. gosh! It's sickening. I mean, why guys can spend their whole time playing video games yet can't find a single minute with their girlfriends?!! what's the point of having a girlfriend? duh..^_^

I just got back from our event's project "The Graduation Ball"..Ü But I promised to share my reasons why I'm single, so, just before I will hit the bed tonight, allow me to share my first reason why I'm single. 


Why I'm Single: Reason 101  (I'm Not Hot!)


Yes. True. I'm not hot. If I am, guys would definitely drool over me. Court me. Make me fall in love with them. Flirt with me or worse, hook up with me.  I know, other guys might find me  hot but I'm referring to these guys that I like yet don't even pay attention at me =))


I may have a pretty face..

Yes! that's according to Mark of The Rambling Person and I have to take his word for it. I didn't mean to be cocky or whatever but I  believe that everyone is beautiful in her own way..^_^ And I feel that I am beautiful in my own way. agree? haha! ^_^

Okay. 


But a pretty face is not enough for guys of today's generation. They wanted someone who's sexy with a 36C size =)) (Am I wrong or right?

they want this!

not this!

See the difference? =))


But hey, wait! I'm not saying all guys are like this. okay? This is just my opinion. This isn't me saying I feel bad being single or what. I was just trying to sort things out (the possible reasons why I'm single). Believe me. This isn't me complaining about "why I'm still single" I dunno how to explain it in English. 
But surely, this is one reason why I'm single. They don't find me hot/sexy so that leads to-I'm not attractive to Mai so why court her? -then I remained single. haha..


So, this topic will run for like a week or maybe less, maybe just 3days. ^_^ Ugh. So much for a blurt. Sometimes I just can't organize my thoughts and I do apologize for that. But let me know if you understand nothing so I can edit my work. It just that, I don't do draft :D I post on the spot-so, most likely I run out of words and all. ^_^


But anyway, I'll shut up  now.


Other reason will be posted tomorrow :)


By the way, before I go. Let me just say this. It's Tim's Birthday today and I wanna shout it. ^_^


So, here it goes..

Happy Happy Birthday to the one and only Tim of A Lunatic Pope..

he's one of my first ten followers here in blogsphere. Just so you know Tim, meeting you was one of the most nicest thing ever happened to me here in blogsphere =)) More blessings and be happy! ^_^

Okay. 


This will just be or this will be just a quick post whatever. haha! So I have to put everything so you will know that I'm confuse which one's the right one.


Alright.


I talked to a friend last night and it was a funny conversation touching the topic-why we're still single @ 26 :) A very disturbing thoughts to ponder on, don't you think? haha.


Yeah. I asked myself the same thing always. Why am I still single? Do I really look that bad for guys not to be attracted to me? I mean, C'mon! State you're reasons. Why aren't you stepping forward guys!? Man up! haha! I'm kidding. duh.


Never mind. So anyway, 

this aren't these =))

 Got few reasons in my mind but  I gotta hold on to that thought muna. This isn't the best time to share it. I'm tired. My back is in a lot of pain and I'm hungry :( It's past midnight and I gotta rest =))

Just before I will go to bed tonight. I would just like to thank every one who voted for me and my friend Xan. It was a close fight, in fact I top and unfortunately Xan was eliminated with 4 votes away I think? :(

Another round is coming up tomorrow and I hope you'll still support me =))

Anyone an Adele fan here? 


Well, I'm not. 


But this song someone like you hits me like a thunderstorm. Every words. It feels like it's meant for me. 


I dunno. but part of the song says "never mind.. I'll find someone like you"


The song reminded me of my feelings years ago. I will share what happen when I'm not busy. But if you will listen to the lyrics, you'll have the idea what I'm feeling..


as for now, here's the song that caused me LSS..^_^ 


enjoy! ^_^ 

whops! looks like I got you with my title ;-)


This isn't about drinking nor getting drunk. It's cocktail mixing baby! ^_^
We've been busy because of this. Part of our final requirement in Training Strategy was to organize a seminar that tackles about Basic Mixology and Flairtending. Although we were not able to came up with a huge number of participants but receiving good feed backs from them was more than enough..


Okay, okay..enough with enough..


Let's get started..

That is Janine. 


The one in charge. 


The hard working lady. 


wait? you know her right? 


She have been my guest for like 30 days and been featured too  many times in this blog =))

Bar area

You can find this at the ground floor of our Training Center :)

The brands used during the mixing :) 

Guess you're familiar with these stuff, aye aye bloggers? :)

Before the seminar started :)

my group mates with M'Vallejos :)

As the seminar was going on..

Ops! there's Princess and Dawn are in the house :)

Okay. In this time. The speaker "Joey" suddenly perform the layering/flaming "4th of July" while waiting for our group mates -who bought the ice. hehe..yeah yeah..we forgot to buy ice before everything started. haha! Gosh. ^_^ But see? we made it through-ALIVE =))

4th of July..

15ml of Grenadine syrup (base)

15ml of Blue Curacao

15 ml liquor (tequila, rum or vodka)

the mixed drinks =)

THE FACES OF COCKTAILS..

participants time to shine =))

And finally..the giving of certificates :)

It was tiring but indeed a successful activity :) KUDOS to us :)


Please please please to everyone who did not cast their votes yet.. click HERE  for infos how to vote :) thank you! ^_^

Ladies and Gentlemen presenting to you the song All My Life by K-Ci and Jojo which will be my entry for this week's Blog Idol in 90's Medley category. I've been in this game for a month now and I'm glad I made it this far, 3 more weeks and winner/s will be declared. It's round 6 now and I need your help. ^_^

Please do vote for my entry and Xan's entry Hand In My Pocket by Alanis Morissette.

Just follow these steps.

1. Go here to vote

2. Scroll down until you see post a new comment. Bloggers can cast their votes using the Intense Debate and must provide a working URL. If you're using a BLOGSPOT blogs, then you be signed in in your account.

3. Click post a new comment and post these following songs as your comment.

• All My Life
• Hand In My Pocket

4. thank you! ^_^

Please please please vote for me :D You only have to vote once a week..♥

I forgot to publish this one last night. Now, I'm editing it. Gosh. 
Anyway, we really planned last Friday to wear our uniform as for Monday, it's official-no more classes! ugh! I love it! So, to have a memory of our cute uniform, we had photo shoot =))


Behold for the last time..^_^

after our HR10 class.

Lunch @Jollibee :)

my niece ;)

After Lunch: Bench mode :) -STOLEN SHOTS

 LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE =))

 After Culinary Arts Class =)

Happy moments will always be remembered :) 


@Chingee..♥ we miss you..please come back  now..Chai T_T
This video is for you :) -crazy I know, but for sure you'll gonna love it! hahahaha!

Like I said, this video will run for like a  week or less and here I am with our second crazy video =))


..we made the webcam here our mirror. haha!


throughout the video what I did was to comb my hair and put some lipstick! haha!

Lastly, here's the original version of Rhamedan and Esthel's Super Bass. Told yah, it's not Lip Sync! Listen up Dwizzt!

^_^