After 10 years in college I will finally march myself up stage to receive my diploma. I honestly am not excited about it. I fear that my life would turn upside down after graduation. That things won't go the way I perceive it to be. I'm not afraid of failures-I failed too many times already. Another failure means nothing to me now. I am more afraid of disappointments from my family. I am no good at handling responsibilities, neither to take care of other but myself. I don't know what to do and what will I become after graduation. All I know is that, I have to look for a job, stabilize myself and live my life the way I always wanted it to be! hooray!!!