March 29, 2012

Feeling Weary

Posted by Mai Yang at 4:35 PM

Ever since I was a kid, the only thing I look forward to was my college graduation. And now it’s finally over, I don’t know what else to look ahead.  I can’t see any bright lights, only blurry images. Lol. I’m starting to feel really scared. 

What will I do? 

No one’s got my back anymore  I was thinking of just getting myself killed so I won’t have to think things over and over again. Haha. Yeah, sometimes, I do think that way. I know I don’t have the guts to do it but it fear me that someday due to stress I might actually commit suicide. All I need is some research which one provides less pain and agony. Haha!
Oh! I really don’t know what to do..

Anyway, my friend Matet is leaving in weeks now, off to Germany to marry the man she loves. Whoa, proposals are everywhere and so are engagements, it’s envious, everyone’s happy with their love life and I’m not! It’s unfair! Lols. I’m kidding. I’m actually happy being single and free. To settle down is the last thing I have in mind. I might tie the knot when I’m really out of my mind. Haha..so, watch out! ^_^

To tell you the truth. I’m bored. I submitted a few resumes to different companies and received no response. I mean, got some scheduled interviews but it's too urgent. Can't be rush. I still have lots of things to do before I will drawn myself to an actual battle with life. Ugh. I’m feeling so upset now. Omg. My happy thoughts, where have you gone? 
 
Hay. I’ll just have to leave you with this smile 
 
Have a good day everyone. ^_^

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10 comments:

  1. OutcastMarch 29, 2012 at 4:53 PM

    I'm sorry to hear you're feeling a bit down Mai, please don't be though. This is actually the start of something new, something beautiful. Sure it's tough to adapt to life after studies, I've had to deal with it way sooner than I expected to but once you get into things and get a job you'll stop feeling bored and realise that things aren't so bad, here's hoping so anyway. Don't get yourself killed either, we'd miss you around here!

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  2. MarkMarch 29, 2012 at 5:00 PM

    No, no suicide, bad Mai, bad! It actually takes more strength to keep on living. As for what to do next, well that is something you have to work out, but you don't have to work it out immediately. Calm down, take the time, and think on it. You were so focused on graduating you forgot to think about what comes next. That's natural so just take the time to think on that now :)

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  3. OutcastMarch 29, 2012 at 5:06 PM

    By the way Mai, sorry for the second comment but my browser is showing a lot of your layout as not working. Hopefully that's just something to do with my computer though and not your blog.

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  4. EaglemanMarch 29, 2012 at 5:08 PM

    ai ai ai down ka mai? weh? hehe..

    OK lang yan.. ganyan talaga after graduation.. una mamimiss mo mga classmates mo pero makaka recover ka din dun.. tapos ma iisip mo mag apply na ng trabaho tapos hindi ka pa ma hired sa mga pinasahan mo ng resume.. pero makaka recover ka din dun.. tapos lablife naman... pero makaka recover ka din dun ^_^ joks! hehe

    kaya mo yan Mai ^_^ pinagdaanan ko din yang ganyan feeling after ko maka graduate... pero may stable job ako ngayon at very stable na relationship with belle ^____^

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  5. confictushomeMarch 29, 2012 at 11:39 PM

    There is joy in becoming, and slow steady decline in having become. Life feels that way, so focus on becoming.

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  6. UnknownMarch 30, 2012 at 9:05 AM

    I had that feeling too after leaving uni. The scheduled days filled with classes and dismissal times are gone. Also, more importantly to me, all the friends that I saw almost every day are out of reach when I go back home. It's enough to make a person cry, geez. (T_T)

    It doesn't sting after a while though. Gotta remember that it's silly to think that life is over after you just got out of college!

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  7. JhanzMarch 30, 2012 at 6:00 PM

    Just wait! :) Dadating din ang opportunities. :3 Congrats!

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  8. AnonymousMarch 31, 2012 at 12:55 AM

    Don't think too much mai! Just do all the things that would make you happy! Remember that all of your friends will be there for you even in their prayers! ^_^

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  9. Vale ♥March 31, 2012 at 5:37 AM

    I think we all had that feeling, a bit of fear of the unknown ! Just take it easy, one day at a time, you will surely find your way, you have plenty of time to get stressed ! I am sure everything is gonna be ok sweetie. Kisses

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  10. Julie Ann LozadaMarch 31, 2012 at 1:46 PM

    take your time and enjoy your free life, first! good luck!

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