I used to believe that life is unfair. But I don't think I'm alone in this, am I ?
I mentioned about my friend, a dear friend (who is seriously sick) I accompanied last Tuesday for his dialysis, right? For some reason, I tried to refrain complaining about me being jobless and been really thankful for everyday (every morning) I wake up healthy.
many would say life is UNFAIR, but it's not. Know why? because life is..UNFAIR to you, UNFAIR to me, UNFAIR to everyone. Therefore, LIFE is FAIR.When he asked me how am I doing, absentmindedly my reply was sort of, "f*cked up! I'm jobless, frustrated and hopeless" I can go on..
but his reply really made me think, "atleast you're healthy Mai", I can sense his pain thru his message. It must have been hard for him.
Who am I to complain? There's this man who actually has a job, a wife and a life but recently was diagnosed of an unexpected sickness that is curable thru transplant only. I tried to pull myself together, gather my wits and put a smiley emoticon on my reply. I wanted to reassure him that everything will be okay, but of course, he knows better than me. So much to my surprise, he seem to be doing fine when I saw him..-share to you some other time.
For now, I really just wanna be thankful I'm still alive, healthy and kicking. Live life to the fullest! I admit, I'm still upset with the fact that I'm still jobless, I still can't believe myself I'm still jobless. I've been trying so hard :( might not be obvious to you but I swear, I'm doing my very best, pushing my limits and even trying to get whatever it is that's on the table just because I needed a job so badly :(
Sigh.
Moreover, back to the book FIFTHY SHADES TRILOGY. I DID FINISH THE BOOK in less than a week :P I guess I am well aware (I just ignore it) that it wasn't the best book in the market (not even close) and it was definitely one of the most f*cked up book I ever read, guess Mark and Marcus would surely agree with me on this :), but it was very entertaining and funny, that's all I care :)
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How's life for you dearies? :) I hope it's not as f*cked up as mine :) Happy thoughts. xx
I'm really sorry to hear about your friend Mai but at the same time he really shouldn't be trying to make you feel bad, like I know what he's going through is horrible and he does make a good point but that doesn't mean that you're not allowed to feel sad too.
ReplyDeleteI believe that you could be a guy who has everything in the world and be sad or you could be a guy in the world who has nothing and is happy. No matter what they have sadness is sadness and they shouldn't be told they're not allowed to be sad because they're not a certain age or because they don't have certain things.
I do get what he's saying and if it helps you rationalise life then that's amazing but you shouldn't be forced to be happy just because you're not seriously sick, it's not fair.
Don't be too hard on yourself. Everyone gets caught up in their own problems sometimes. I'm really sorry your friend is having a rough time. Hopefully a transplant can be found soon.
ReplyDeleteI hope the same :(
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good post!O=D
This is a hard post to write, and you know what...as much as people say you can always make more money, without health you really have nothing. You'll find that job Mai. DOn't worry....
ReplyDeletePansin ko lang karamihan na may pera o mayaman kung magkasakit ay grabe...ang nagiging sakit nila ay magiging magasto sa pagpagaling.....may mga tao na nasa lansangan nabubuhay ay mabuti ang katawan.....pero ang ilan na may sariling bahay at may nakakain talaga masakitin....
ReplyDeletei am sorry for what happened to your friend. but if it is God's will, he will surely be well soon. it's good he has a great friend like you. :) and do not worry with that 'jobless' thingy of yours. you'll have a good one soon. SOON! ^_^
ReplyDeleteLife isn't fair but if you have problems you do have a right to complain. We all have problems and being passive aggressive to eachother isn't going to help. Although life is very fair too in it's ways. It's an odd mix and is best summed by saying it's simply life.
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